Tear stained ;

2006-12-07T14:31:00.000+08:00

2006-12-05T19:54:00.000+08:00

GAHHH this world is unfair. Yeah whatever I feel like a bitch for thinking about these things but you know what, it sucks when the things you do go unappreciated. Yes yes you do things not expecting anything in return but but but human nature just doesn't work that way. And to make things horribly worse, today just killed my mood. I was supposed to do something for someone but I was too darn lazy and slow. Was planning to drop by Claudia's but then it freaking rained. Damn heavily at that. And left me stranded at Taka. ))): And because of this stupid rain I dropped my phone and now its spoilt. SHIT REALLY DOES HAPPEN. I feel like a bitch for being troubled by these things when other people have bigger problems to worry about. This post is random.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE! (0412)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA! (0512)

Grace : Hey there Chan #3, cheer up dear one! Everything will be fine okay? I love you <333

2006-11-24T08:04:00.000+08:00

I wonder where I fucked up. I don't know what went wrong. Why's my life crumbling to pieces again? God fuck it, I'm not going because I ... I just thought you and him would be happier together. Give me time to cry it all out at home. To think over what the fuck went wrong in my life. You think you're the only one who's tried?? Fuck, I've tried my best too okay! I'm stressed god damn it. I can't be happy 24/7. I can't talk to you 24/7. And I don't know, my friends make me happy alright! And you hate them! Don't you know thats one of the reasons I'm so resentful all the time. I've done my best to ignore that and I've tried talking more smiling more but no you don't particularly give a fuck. I try my fucking hardest for my results. And its all to bloody make you happy don't you get it! Do you think I'm not fucking affected by all this? Sure I might put up some shit I AM INDEPENDENT front but no damn it, I want my family back. Honest to god I do. I'll do anything you want alright. Why don't you just talk to me, like NO YOU CAN'T GO OUT or NO SHE CAN'T STAYOVER or YES YOU BETTER GET YOUR FUCKING ASS TO KL. Instead of getting all cold and shit on me. 99% of the time I don't even know why you're angry at me. And I'm scared to talk when you're cold. Its insanely scary because I'm afraid of what will come out of your mouth. Whether its, you're so fucked up, or don't call me your mother anymore, or some fucked up shit that makes me cry. Perhaps I should be immune to it by now. You said my brains were fucked up when I was 9 I think. But no I suppose it hurts more now, but you never knew. Screw all that. Whatever happened to my family? ):

I really hope you read this because I'm damn sorry and its not some shit to gain sympathy from you because I want something. I don't want anything. I mean it.

And please god, keep me alive, these thoughts are killing me, they're scaring me because I really don't know what I'd do.

2006-11-22T19:33:00.000+08:00

and slowly you kill me, with words that cut like knives
Holidaying in australia was nothing short of awesome, brilliant weather, lovely beach and fabulous company, what more can I ask for? :D It sucks to be back home. Loneliness sets in again. ): Oh well. Thanks Anabel Charmaine Charmaine & Brian Claudia Olivia Tricia!! You guys were fantastic :D So anyway summarised:
- Unparalleled fun on roller coasters, rides and whatnots at Dreamworld & Movieworld accompanied with tons of screams laughter and ribbing :D
- Shopping at Pacific Fair & Habour Town (pouches!!)
- Digging, building, emo-ing, swimming at the lovely beach
- Nights spent walking to Cold Rock for ice-cream, playing monopoly & cards
- Jet boat ride that got us soaked
- Wet and Wild with the awesome tornado ride & wave pool (:
- Finally, the best sunrise ever :D

2006-11-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hello Everybody :)
After 9 years of knowing Charmaine Chew, I really think she's an awesome friend to have, furthermore, she's more than just nice :D Ok byebye!

2006-11-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hello I decided to post again! :D School has been stupid so far, I mean 99% of the time I'm stoning, dreaming, talking, or doing tuition homework. What's the point of going man. Okay well the people around me make for great company and entertainment! (: I didn't know babies could be so entertaining HAHAHAHA. CHARMIES AND HAMMIE AND TAMMIE! Hahahaha okay tammie is not good company. Anyway anyway, went to watch STEP UPPPP with CHARMIE CHARMIE HAMMIE AND CAT. It was OOH LA LA HOTTTT. And those babies are so funny. HAHHA. Meritus Mandarin toilet mirrors are cool shit. Okay whatever.

I can't wait for monday when I kiss this shit school goodbye. OOH WEE.

A thousand lies have made me colder

2006-10-25T20:04:00.000+08:00

Anger's a fascinating thing to watch. It usurps control of your bodily senses, and sometimes it makes you exert insane amounts of strength. Maybe by slamming things it gives you a certain control, makes you feel better venting your anger on inanimate things, after all, anger is when you lose control over matters, whether its yourself or other people. So you don't suppress it all inside, you don't feel like you're losing control over everything, but in actual fact everything's slipping away from you. It's all about control I think, as I idled the past two endless hours mulling over this. Anger makes me lose control over the words that slip out and facial contortions I suppose. Mostly its suppressed, so you feel like some pressure cooker, with all the unpleasantries all compressed inside you, and not able to let it out, probably for fear of consequences. So, I don't really know, maybe anger's a loss of control, and I think also an effort to keep it. Like an irony.

Okay whatever i don't know what I'm rambling about.
I guess my point is, I suppress my anger, so I think I have more self control than you think.
You probably don't get it.

OKAY, fine I'm sorry.

2006-10-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

What the fuck, yes I know I screwed up. Today was fucked. ):

2006-10-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

SO FUCK Y'ALL FUCK Y'ALL THROUGH AND THROUGH.
I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS FUCKING SHIT. GIVE ME A BREAK DAMN IT. SO Y'ALL CAN DO IT BUT WE CAN'T. YEAH LIFE AIN'T FAIR BUT IS IT THIS UNFAIR?! I AIN'T GONNA TAKE ANYMORE OF THIS FUCK.
Y'ALL CAN JUST GO FUCK YOURSELVES.
GO WITH YOUR 'NORMAL FRIENDS' AND BITCH TILL Y'ALL GROW TAILS AND FUR AND BECOME REAL BITCHES.
THANK YOU VERY FUCKING MUCH.
THANK YOU FOR MAKING A FUCK OF THIS FRIDAY NIGHT.
ITS BEEN AWESOME BITCHING ABOUT YOU HERE.
HEY, ITS NOT BITCHING! I'M DOING IT IN THE OPEN, IN NICE BIG CAPSLOCK FOR Y'ALL TO SEE WITH YOUR LITTLE BITCHY EYES!
OKAY I'M DONE HERE. I'VE WASTED ENOUGH BLOGSPACE ON TWO FACED BITCHES LIKE ALL OF YOU.
LOTS OF LOVE, JESSICA.
ACTUALLY, LOVE?!!? MY FUCKING ASS.

2006-10-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

WOOHOOOOO!
I SCREWED ALL MY EXAMS !
I'M DONE MUGGING !
I'M GONNA PLAY !!!
AND FORGET I STILL HAVE TWO MORE PAPERS !

Okay byebye! I'm off to my favourite-est show on earth ! :DDD
twenty fourrrrrrrrr !! :D

2006-09-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hello all you sexy people, I interrupt my hiatus for a very important announcement!

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!:D (tomorrrow)
I wonder why there's no like, baby's day.

Okay, hello hiatus, I'm back!

2006-09-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel
Oh it's here again. ): The stressful exam period. Darn. I have absolutely no time for anything at all. In the morning I'm too tired for morning run. In the afternoon, I'm too tired for the gym ): And I'm too tired to do my homework or study either. WHERE DID ALL MY ENERGY GO TO?!!??! Whatever, anyway, I have no time. I don't even have time to make my IC and they called my mom up and now she thinks I'm going to jail. Oh yeah, she can't wait for that to happen. ):

Oh and umm, sorry to Reca and Grace, I know how late I am but I'll get your presents when I can squeeze some time to find them. Heh.

Wokay, time for the biennial
HIATUS.
BYEBYE. DON'T COME HERE ANYMORE.
I'M EITHER MUGGING, SLEEPING OR IN JAIL.

2006-09-07T21:24:00.000+08:00

You were the one to hold me,
the night the sky fell down
Circle properties is a nightmare topic I swear. I can just tear my hair out doing it ): Can't believe how incredibly bad I am at this chapter. I just can't see the bloody angles or whatever shit. ARGHHHH. There's nothing worth posting about. Except maybe this holiday really sucks. And 24 is the most exciting show I've ever watched. And I'm getting so fat, I'll break the weighing mchine when we take height and weight.

2006-09-04T18:22:00.000+08:00

This morning when I woke up I told myself that I was gonna go on a LONG TERM DIET. YES! I felt so proud of myself.

Then when I went out, my mom asked me, do you want to eat the honey cake?
OH MY GOD HONEY CAKE! YES!!
AND I ATE THE WHOLE DAMN THING THATS SOAKED IN FATS ):

I REALLY SUCK.

2006-09-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

Exams are coming and all I've been doing is slacking! ): I'm clueless about all my subjects, especially chemistry. And my maths is horrendous ): Especially circle properties. Damn, last tuition I was so completely screwed up and I think I acted like an asshole because of this topic. ARGHHH. Its just, I've never been so frustrated about my work before ))))):
Okay never mind. I'm getting angry again ):

2006-08-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

Sharp disaster in a fresh new coma
Well I lock my hands behind my head
I'd cover my heart and hit the deck
I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you

The world's an unfair place. You don't get appreciated for the things you do and sometimes you feel so stupid for putting in so much effort when in the end it all comes to nought. People don't remember what you do, they remember what you don't do. The world's an unfair place. Your generosity never gets reciprocated. Everything screams of selfishness, self centredness & hypocrisy. Life's unfair. Everything all comes at once and its shoving you right smack in the middle and you don't even have space to breathe. You don't even have the damn mood to even fake a smile, a laugh and everything's so forced. You look just fine but deep inside you're dying to scream and just break down. Everything floods you drowns you stifles your creativity drains your energy painful memories torment you and you might as well just die.
I'm so angry these days.

Please god I'm begging you just let me get through these few days and sleepless nights

Camp's tomorrow and I'm hardly looking forward to it.

2006-08-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

WHEEE I'M UPDATING (: Anyway, this national day week has been nothing but fun all the way! :DD Monday was the sleeping/playing checkers/doing homework in two periods of e maths day! I felt so accomplished :DD

Tuesday: Went out with the bunch of people and it was laughter all the way at everybody's loserness. HAHA. Watched lakehouse with Charmaine and I cried ): It was so sad please!!! But in the end, everybody was cheering and I felt so happy!!! :DD And after that was spoiler tuition ):

Wednesday Oh wow it's national day! I was never particularly patriotic, rejoicing in the fact not that it's Singapore's birthday but rather that its a bloody holiday where I can be spared the mundane regime of school. Anyway, spent the day doing the waterfall board for our class, after numerous reminders and admonitions about our apparent lack of commitment.

Thursday CLICKED :D It was bloody hilarious, especially the dogs humping that big yellow duck. Ooh and surprisingly sad too. I cried at a movie the second time this week. ):

FRIDAY! School, as usual, sucked. Alyssa Tan gave me the stupidest name I ever heard. Thank the heavens she's not my mother if not I'll probably have to suffer my whole life with such an embarrassing name -.-" Anyway, at night I went for the church youth BBQ with Jeanette! OOH WEE! At first we were like regretting it when we didn't know anybody at all. And there were so many green people. And they made us play that squirrel&tree ice breaker. But I say it was a great night spent! :DD Talking the whole time and listening to PSALM 91 the coolest P&W band EVER! I am inspired to learn the guitar and drums!! OH GOSHHH AND IT WAS SUCH A GREAT NIGHT BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE OF SOMETHING UNMENTIONABLE!!!!! :DDDDDDDD But it made me smile so wide I swear (:

SATURDAY! Said goodbye to my dearest cousin at the airport so early in the morning. LOUISE! I MISS YOU ALREADY ): At night was Ernica Ding's birthday party! And it was so freaking funny as usual. I mean, they were all being their corny and cheesy selves (: And making fun of me all the way!?!? I'm being bullied ))))): But it was FUN!! THANKS ERNICA DING MY ON/OFF WIFE! Happy Birthday in TWO DAYS! :D

2006-07-31T20:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHLEEN!

Yay I'm updating! Because I am super bored doing IMPACT! ): I decided that I hate thermometers forever! Anyway, yesterday's funfair was FUN! Haha. Packing nachos and then slacking around before finally making balloons with Charmaine Charmaine and Jeanette. I can make a SWORD and a FLOWER :DDDD Oh and some idiot &*%^$&* PINCHED ME! )): Now I have a bruise and I dont know why but a scratch as well. ): I was almost screaming in the shower please. And I painted my face and my arms too! USING MY SKIN AS A CANVAS! Okay so it was really fun and I wanna help out again next year! Except that I was really dead beat when I got home.

Today was umm SLACK! I mean it was like dancing with the boyboy during PE, boxing HIS face then spinning round and round. I can't pirouette on the spot. )): I like spin off to don't know where. Then chem was was super duper slack because SOMEBODY didn't come! :D There was no chicken chop today ))))))): The western stall cheat my feelings!! Hmpf ): OH YES we surprised the BLOE with a cupcake for her birthday and then the real BIG BIG cake! Haha it was damn messy and everybody was getting cake on their faces. E maths was, as usual, the fun fun class! Checkers again with Charmaine :DD I learnt how to kill a king. Haha.

My dentist says I'm going to have cavities if I don't flosssss! )): I hate flossing!! Its so boring and waste time and I've never flossed in my life! OH NOOOO. Okay I've tried, but its so difficult. RAH.

I realised how &*%*%%**$@# tired I am when I fell asleep at like 5pm and couldn't wake up after that.

2006-07-23T17:27:00.000+08:00

When every wound has been re-opened
And in this world of give and take, you must have faith
And the distance to your dreams stretch beyond reach
Don't lay down and die

I'm getting fat doing my homework. See, since like friday I've been doing work with many cups of strawberry yoghurt drink and lots and lots of gold flakes. The fat content is INSANE. Homework is BAD and FATTENING. Hopefully dancing salsa tomorrow will help me to lose weight! :D But then again, I'm born with two left feet, how do they expect me to dance!?! OH NO.

TOMORROWTOMORROWTOMORROW AHHHHHH!!!

2006-07-16T17:34:00.000+08:00

Twice this week I have had to endure the sights of cruelty, disfigured feet, dismembered body parts, severed heads. Oh spare me this gore fest please. Its supposed to help me to appreciate what I have now. But no I don't think the sight of gruesomely severed heads, headless bodies and cruelly bound feet are going to do anything more than make me cringe and keep whacking the unfortunate person next to me.

ARGHHH.
What's with people and gory images?

Anyway dear twin I hope you enjoyed your birthday celebration on thursday! Sorry it wasn't much but HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D I love youuuuuu!

2006-07-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

FOURTEEN more days! TWO more weeks!
I can hardly wait! :DDD

My life is sorting out I think (:

2006-07-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

I didn't qualify. What to expect? )): I was prepared to screw up I guess, but not prepared to feel so disappointed in myself. It was hard to keep those stinging tears from coming. But I guess I kept it well inside. :D Couldn't stop the sighs though, as Alyssa kept saying. Haha. Anyway, thanks so much ALYSSA CHARMAINE EVLIN MICH SHIR for coming down to support! I say it helped so much seeing y'all three in the stands (: Thanks for the messages too :DDD I LOVE YOUUU <33

Anyway, thanks to Aline Chan BOMB TWIN! And because I'm pretty bored watching HENIN VS. MAURESMO.

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.

After that tag at least 5 people to do this

1. Reca
2. Charmaine NG
3. Alyssa
4. Jeanette
5. Charmaine CHEW
6. Aline
7. Grace
8. Shirlynn
9. Evlin
10. Diana
11. Clare

.1. How did you meet 10?;
Diana: Friend of a friend (:

.2.What would you do if you never met 2;
Charmaine Ng: I wouldn't have one of best friends ever! & nobody to fight with too :D

.3.What would you do if 9 and 11 dated?;
Evlin & Clare: NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOOO!

.4.Do you like 7?;
Grace: Fellow Chan! PIG! Why not?

.5.would 5 and 6 make a good couple?;
Charmaine Chew & Aline: OOH YESSS (: A fatso and fatist! Opposites attract!

.6.Describe 3.;
Alyssa: Fellow fatso who cracks me up ALL THE TIME! Retarded, loud BUT real sweet & one of the best friends I have :D

.7.Do you think 8 is attractive;
Shirlynn: HOTTIE BANANA! Hell yesssss!

.8.Tell me something about 2.;
Charmaine Ng:She's actually a moon.

.9.Do you know any of 4's family?;
Jeanette:Hmm, talked to her older sister and seen the rest of her family around in church.

.10.Whats 5's favourite things?;
Charmaine Chew: Fernando Torres, Music, Papayas, Giraffes, STARFISH HAHAHAHAHAHA.

.11.What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you.;
Alyssa: I'd say, THANKS I KNOW.

.12.What language does 6 speak?;
Aline: English Chinese Japanese Tamil and lots of nonsense.

.13.Who is 9 going out with?;
Evlin: HAHAHAHA! Let me see, which one is it now?

.14. How old is 8 now?;
Shirlynn: SUPPOSEDLY fifteen years old but I think more of like fifteen MONTHS.

.15.When was the last time you talked to 1?;
Reca: Just yesterday

.16.What is 2's favourite band/singer?;
Charmaine Ng: Umm, Ashley Parker Angel?

.17.Would you ever date 7?;
Grace: Yeah if I were lesbian or a guy, both of which I am most definitely NOT.

.18.Would you ever date 11?;
Clare: Hahahaah same as before.

.19.Have you ever seen 2 naked?;
Charmaine Ng: OMG NOOOOO!

People whom you want to pass this on;
Jeanette Shir Evlin Grace Alyssa (though I know you won't do it!)

2006-07-07T14:47:00.000+08:00

Give me strength endurance whatever to endure these few minutes of utmost despair disappointment and embarrassment. Hopefully, I won't screw up that bad. Hopefully I can throw better than I can in school. Hopefully I can even get the javelin to move. Please let this competition pass as quickly as possible and let me get on with my screwed up life. )):

2006-07-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
I suppose I don't really have the time, or the mind space to worry about this. But I'm fucking scared for nationals on friday. I realised I can't throw that dumb stick anywhere else but the school field. Hopefully I can get past those few moments of embarrassment without breaking down. Oh well why am I worrying about this when my heart aches so bad. Its all coming back again.

2006-07-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

Youth day celebrations were pretty okay I suppose. The performances were entertaining and everything :DD After that went to town with Charmaine Grace the PIG! Germaine Kathleen Lynette & Stephanie. Oh they are such a funny bunch. Walked around a bit then neoprints! Haha that day was such a retarded day. Anyway at night watched superman returns! Thanks evil buddy! :DD Brandon Routh is HOT I say. Eye candy for like two hours! Ooh wee ((:

Germany beat Argentina 4-2 on penalties

Italy 3 Ukraine 0

PORTUGAL BEAT ENGLAND 3-1 ON PENALTIES :DDDDDD
Rooney stepped on some guy's crotch and got sent off. HAHA.

And finally the most depressing score, Brazil 0 France 1
OH BRAZIL )))): what happened? )):

I OFFICIALLY HATE THE OLD BALDING FRENCH MEN.

God I can't believe how happy I sound here

2006-06-21T15:50:00.000+08:00

Because I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Because I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I guess I still got the guts.

Homework makes me sick.
I am in a screwed mood.
GRAHHH.

2006-06-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FIFTEENTH BUDDY!

Hope you had an awesome one today (:
I love you buddy! PLENTYPLENTY!

120606!
Dear buddy's birthday today! Oh and it was an awesome night really! Haha, was late in meeting the fatsos and the fatist. Supposed to meet at six and I left my house at six. Hehhh. Anyway, went to CARTEL! Ooh free bread! (: Had the most fun time just laughing at my fellow fatsos. Their antics just crack me up! Haha then the stewpid cow had the funniest idea. LETS GO TAKE NEOPRINT! Hahaha like wth! It was nice anyway! And sure as hell funny as usual. (: After that went to Galilee for drinks. And then Aline and Catherine joined us! :DDDD More fun fun fun! And those two silly goons flooded my camera with pictures of TOILETBOWLS. Hahhaha lameass fatists!!!

THEN THEN we went to NYDC to surprise buddy!!!! Ooh whee, I bet she was moved to tears. Hahhha. But the first thing she said was, I knew something was wrong! Hahaha. But had a fun fun time! I have a funny bunch of friends I swear. I want to post the video!!! Of the fatsos. Hahahhaha. Had the best time just laughing and talking crap with the rest ((:
ALINE ALYSSA CATHERINE CHARMAINE CHARMAINE AND BIRTHDAY GIRL EVLINNNNN!
I LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS REALLY! : DDDD
(whether you're fatist or fatso, haha)

HOW SPASTIC!!

EVEN MORE SPASTIC! RIGHT CHEW.

DOTSSSS

UNGLAM QUEENS

HAHAHAHHAA

FATSOS!!

FATSOS AGAIN!! I LOVE! :DDDD

BIRTHDAY GIRL WO AI NI <3

GROUP SHOT! YAYYY!

2006-06-11T14:52:00.000+08:00

Three Names You Go By:
Jessica Juicy Juicebomb/poo

Three Parts of Your Heritage:
Chinese, and more and more Chinese

Three Things That Scare You:
Losing a loved one, Being alone, Having my eyes covered :DD

Three of Your Everyday Essentials:
Handphone, Wallet, iPod

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
Black Nike tee, Black FBTs and ummm, Undies?

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists at the moment:
Dishwalla, James Blunt, Jason Mraz

Three of Your Favorite Songs at the moment:
Every Little Thing; Dishwalla, Feeling a Moment; Feeder, Greatest Story Ever Told; Oliver James

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than love):
A listening ear, Assurance, Understanding

Two Truths and a Lie:
My favourite songs are My Humps, Chocolate and Candy Shop
I'm on a diet
I don't like to watch TV

Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:
SMILE, hair, Eyes (:

Three of Your Favourite Hobbies:
Shopping, Listening to music, Watching movies

Three Things You want really badly right now:
THE NEW MACBOOK! Birkenstocks, Happiness

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
Alaska, Spain, Britain

Three things you want to do before you die:
Skydive, Scubadive, Make the best of every moment I spend with my loved ones

Three people I would like to see take this quiz:
Alyssa Grace Natalie

Oh I say europe was an awesome holiday (:
Day one was spent driving to Luzern then going up some mountain, Mannlichen I think. The views there, expectedly brilliant even though the weather wasn't perfect. But that got some snow up on the mountain! :DD Okay, maybe falling ice. Haha. Froze my ass out up there though ):

Day Two went up to Geneva where there were blue skies. Pretty lake and nice nice scenic long drive up there I think. Most of the drives are scenic haha. And then there were no hotel rooms cos everyone in switzerland went to eneva for some conference so I thought I had to sleep in the car! Which scared me because I would not be able to wash my hair the next morning. ): But then I had a good idea of going to CHAMONIX which is below MONT BLANC! Except I had no idea what or where it was. So just went and it turned out to be in FRANCE! Hee which was super but they didn't chop my passport so it sucked because I like to see chops on my passport. So Chamonix is pretty cool. The internet is relatively cheap there! :DD We got there quite late so yeah just went to get warm things and stuff and slept nicely. Not in the car!!! (((((:

Day Three went up to Mont Blanc! Okay the mountain in front of it. Aiguille Du Midi I THINK! I don't know no french. So anyway, It was nice nice nice with nice view and pretty BIG BIG mountains all around. And you can see clouds BELOW you! WHEEEEE! I wanted to sit on it cos it looked so fluffy and nice. But I think I'll just go right through it. ): Hmpff. Oh and and IT WAS COLD. So I froze my ass out again! (: Yeah then took another slow slow cable car to another mountain opposite. Which turned out to be ITALY! I like, took a cable car to Italy. Hahaha. COLD COLD COLD again. SNAP SNAP SNAP many pictures. The went back to France and took the lift up to the peak where it was even colder! Oh yeah and there were crazy people walking from one mountain to another. IN THE SNOW. Some idiots even set up tents there. Hahahahaha. I was laughing at them cos I was warm in the cable car and I knew they were freezing their stupid asses off in the cold. Heeee. I was glad to go back down again (:

Then we got bored of Chamonix so we drove to Milan. And I say, Milan sucks. I got into a bad mood cos the traffic there is like Vietnam and people drive like crazy idiots. Some ass nearly knocked me down ): But I was too shocked to give him a DIRTY LOOK. Rahhhh. SAw a row of super nice shops and I think I saw a nice tee that was so bling but we were desperate for accomodation AGAIN so couldn't stop. Bloody TOMTOM didn't know how to give directions properly so we drove round like two plus hours. IT SUCKED SUCKED SUCKED. Sucked so much I didn't want to go for dinner. So I stayed in the hotel and read my book. (:

Day Four decided to go to umm St. Moritz. Which was a lovely little place back in Switzerland. With the most expensive shops around!!! Like Prada and LV And Bally and everything! Like OMG. And and I saw my dream house there! It looks like an egg! (: I wanna live in an egg! So anyway we hiked up some little hill and got so freaking tired after like a few steps. I think its because the air up there is very thin so there's not enough oxygen. Hahahaha! Oh yes and I drank the water from the stream and it tastes like Evian!! The soft type of water, but it was nice and cold.

Day Five was the driving day! From St Moritz we went to umm Appenzell I think. To see the chocolate factory but we realised that its not there!!! Its somewhere else and it only opens at two ))): So asked Tomtom to recommend to us a scenic place. And he said the nearest is Kelley or something so we drove drove drove and we landed in some forest. I was like WTF?!?!?! Stupid Tomtom. But the good thing was that it was in Austria!!! Ooh nice. But not much difference from Switzerland actually. Hehh. Then went to Liechtentein! (: For a while only because that country's tiny. Smaller than Singapore. So after that headed for SCHOGGILAND! The chocolate factory. But I think its stupid. So small and there wasn't even any tasting! I mean, whats the point of a chocolate factory if you can't try anything. Hahah. Bought some though (: Then went to Rheinfalls. Some small little short waterfall. Quite nice though. There was fish jumping around and I was concentrating hard trying to catch a picture of one jumping but sadly my fingers and my eyes don't work well together. Germany thereafter were we tried to find Bratwurst sausages. And there wasss! In a small little town. And I met my crush! Oh he's cuteeeee. But I think he'll be ugly next time (: Went back to zurich after that where I had a TWENTY FIVE FRANCS PEE. It was so stupid I hate the hotel. ): Just because I peed in their stupid bathroom before we decided to check out we had to pay TWENTY FIVE FRANCS. Stupid assssss.

Okay I'll update again when i have the time. Anyway I was sad cos I missed the class party and I bet it was fun. Rahhhh.

2006-05-26T18:14:00.000+08:00

X-MEN THREE!

Oooh wee, a most wonderful show with the most wonderful bunch of people (: Went to catch X3 with Grace Kathleen Charmaine Ctherine and Alyssa! Gosh, I swear Cyclops and Angel are SUPER HOT! But their scenes are only like a few minutes in the whole movie. Dang. I hate the director. HMPFFF. Deprived me of eye candy! Haha, and the show's pretty good, but really sad ): Charles Xavier, Jean Gray and CYCLOPS died! )))): OMG. Grass cried! Hahhahahaha! And that got us laughing like crazy. : DD Oh but it was so touching at the last part when Wolverine was like, I'd die for you! Like OMGGG. My heart shattered. Haha okay. Anyway, after that headed for lunch at Yoshinoya. I'M OFFICIALLY ON A DIET!! But had a super fun time with those people talking lots of shit and laughing at their retardedness. ESPECIALLY THE FATSOES MAN. They wanna be X-MEN. HAHAHAH! X-BABIES! :DD And chew's silly froggy bra. I have lame friends I swear.

Then went to window shop with buddy and the cats! (:Finally bought my jeans! But now I find its not so nice. I think maybe the Mango mirror makes me look skinnier. RAHHHH. Cheat my feelings. Or, hopefully, its my mirror at home that makes me look like a fat ass. HAHAHA. Okay whatever, THE DIET STARTS NOWWW!

Whee, BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN LATER with myself! (: Shall cry and be touched by their gay love, and feel their gayness. HOTT. Besides, I loveeeee Jake Gyllenhaal <3

2006-05-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

HAHA YAY SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED THESE TWO DAYS 'M SO HAPPY BUT I'M LAZY TO ELABORATE.

so anyway, THREETWO IS SUCH A FANTABULOUS CLASS AND WE GOT SECOND FOR NETBALL CARNIVAL! I love threetwo plenty plenty! We all did our best and I must say, I'm so proud to be in threetwo! ((: THE BEST CLASS EVERRR! So the netballers slogged their guts out on court, spraining ankles, falling pushing shoving and we managed SECOND! (: Not bad aye, for the little trainings we had. Oh and and, BANNER CLINCHED FIRST! After painting and painting I say, you guys did the perfectest banner around! (: And the cheerleaders did their best and danced awesome! OH YAY ! :DDD

After that went out for lunch at marina square with Aline Catherine Charmaine Grace Liting and Mich. Whee! It was hell fun, photowhoring all the way there! (: I'll post some up really soon. Oh yes then the funniest incident was when twin and I went to get cat's present with grace and liting! We went toilet but took a hell of a long time cos we went watsons. Then when we came back, grass told them the lamest excuse ever! That she had to buy condoms! ((: Hahahaha. And they believed! :DDD Hee. Anyway, gave cat her present. Then went to walk around a bit more where grace bought her huge turtle which is oh so cute. But mine's cuter still :DDD Yeah then headed home.

And thats when I went to watch the sweetest ever video made by my darling gay partner. Oh my god I sound so gay (: Hahaha whatever. Thanks again chew for taking time to do that vid, and for BACK TO BEDLAM!!!! I LOVE YOU BESTY! <3

OH THANKS TO GRACE LITING AND PAT FOR THE LOVELY NECKLACE OR CHOKER! :DD YOU GUYS ARE WAY SWEEEET!
AND TO LEE BOON AND TESS FOR THAT PRETTY PRETTY SWEET MUG! I LOVE IT LOADS. AHH Y'ALL ARE SO SWEEET!
AND JEANETTE FOR THE LITTLE STAR AND THE SWEETEST LETTER EVER! JUICILICIOUS AYE. I LOVE YOU! :DD

Okay then today was actually really boring filled with talks talks and more talks. WOW SO FUN! But yeah it was pretty fun talking nonsense with the people around me, playing broken telephone where the messages became THE UNCLE GAVE ME CHICKEN FLAVOURED CONDOMS and whatnot. Hahaha it was damn funny. Yes, and I didn't even realise what the stupid talk was about because I was busy talking. All I remember is being whacked by the super violent Kathleen and she and Grace staring at skinny balls' hot ass. Hahahhaha. Okay whatever. Then mass with cat and the fatsoes who are such a funny bunch. Laughed lots about don't know what. And home thereafter and X2!!!!!! (:

tomorrow's gonna be a blast! :DDDDDDD How I wish life was like this all the time. Oh such bliss.

2006-05-24T21:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO I'M SO TIRED BUT I JUST MUST POST THIS!

SHOUTOUT TO MY DEAR CHEWY CHEW CHEW / GAY PARTNER / SPERMY GIRAFFE:
THANKS FOR BEING EVER SO SWEET AND DOING THAT VIDEO SO NICELY! HONESTLY I WAS SO TOUCHED I CRIED! ((: IT WAS SO SO SO SO NICE! I'M HAVING VISUAL DIABETES NOW! AFTER WATCHING THAT VIDEO, AND READING THOSE SWEET LETTERS and BOOK! HAHA! (: THANK YOUUUUUUUU. I LOVE YOU TO DEATH I PROMISE! (: I'LL KEEP THAT VIDEO FOR LIFE! EVEN WHEN CDS CAN'T BE USED ANYMORE I'LL STILL KEEP A CD PLAYER SO THAT I CAN WATCH IT EVEN WHEN I'M OLD AND WRINKLED! HAHA THANK YOU AGAIN!!!!!! I LOVE MY DEAR BESTY MUCH MUCH <3

AND TO THE REST OF Y'ALL:
THANKS FOR THOSE SWEET AS SUGARCOATED HONEY MESSAGES (: THEY TOUCHED MY HEART OMG. HEEEEEE. :DDDDDD I LOVE YOU REALLY I DO!

2006-05-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD!

RETARDS WANTED TO TAKE PICTURE WITH A SHARK. -.-"

SEE I'M NOT SCARED OKAY!

HAHA THE MOST SPASTIC ONE AT IT DOING HER SPASTIC THING.

CHEW'S MAKESHIFT TOILET

KIDSSSSS!

WHEEE HOTTTT!

AHHHHHHHHHH!

AND FINALLY, CHEW'S NEW SCHOOL BAG! ISN'T IT PRETTY? :DDD

2006-05-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

YAY! Today was great! (: Netball prep was pretty slack though that half an hour was a bit tiring. Alyssa Tan forgot to wear her shoes! Hahaha and she was walking around in her orange socks! But then she found her shoes ): Hee. OKay anyway after everything we were supposed to wait for aline cat and evlin to come back form laminating her registration thing or something like that. So sat around the canteen and I was super duper bored ): I was like trying to make my voucher holder into a camera or something. Hahaha!

And then after that I heard HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUICY! (((((((: Heee. Was shocked and stunned and touched and all that! I've got a bunch of such sweet friends (: Heh, shir can lie well man! Then try to run away from me some more! I didn't know la. Haha. Its been ten years since I cut a cake and blew candles and made birthday wishes!!! OMGOMG! Haha the second or third time in my life I think! THANK YOUUUUUUU!

Whee! I love surprises!

Anyway, thanks to Aline Alyssa Catherine Charmaine Charmaine Evlin Shirlynn for that thing today! You guys are super dee sweet I promise (: I love you all <3
Oh yes and thanks to Janice for carrying something. Hahah.

And and all of you who were there! Thank you so much (: THREETWO YOU ALL ARE SWEET I SAY! (: shoutouts soon i hope!

Yeah then after that left for town with buddies shir and cat ! Wee had hell lots of fun there I promise, with the two kids being their retarded selves and embarrassing themselves in town! And lots and lots of spastic photowhoring on the way especially in art friend! The pictures will come out soon I promise ! :DDD You made my day I promise!

ALINE EVLIN CATHERINE!
I wasn't pissed today honestly! But still thanks for being so sweet and getting me roses! ((: Hee first time I received flowers!!!And thanks for bluffing me and going to buy the pizza and cake! Oooh I love (:

2006-05-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

Banner painting is superly fun! :D Especially with the most fun bunch of classmates (: Me cat and Liting were happily suntanning but our plans were foiled by those ANTI-SUN people. Especially sexy prawn who was CARRYING AN UMBRELLA while painting. Harms her complexion apparently. Haha! It was sure as hell fun I promise! Though I made a mess of my clothes and got paint all over me I still love to paint banner! Because seeing it turn out so nicely is so satisfying! (((: I was so happy!!! Its really really pretty! Thanks to all you talented painters. Hee. Oh oh and Shir is so silly! She stepped into green paint and she had a green toe! Haha! And then she had to go around cleaning her toe on people. And then making snowstorms on them. KIDDDD! (: Her fellow kid friend was high high high too!!! GRASS AND FUZZY. Oh man, cracked me up ! (: Hee. I LOVE LOVE LOVE THE BANNER! Even though I was so worried it would turn out like shit I think its so nice now!

Charmaine;
POKE! Don't worry about anything okay dear. I'm here for you! (: And I love you plenty plenty and so does everybody in the world!!! <3

2006-05-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

I suppose things are looking up ! :DD

& I hope the banner will turn out oh kay. It doesn't look too pretty now but hopefully, tomorrow it'll look better. Haha I can't believe I'm stressing out for a banner! ):

2006-05-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

Ooh wee. I have fun in school. Play talk play talk eat take out my rubber bands buy big fat juicy cheese pork hotdog go spotlight buy cloth take candid style shots watch people dance try to turn on the visualiser trace the banner worry about screwed up results prepare for failure. At night dream of lala land. Maybe I'll be happy then, for once.

I've sunk so low its hard to get up again. The other time I was down I managed to get up again, with help. I thought I was better, I really had faith in myself. I tried my hardest to be happy. Smiled, talked more, everything I thought you wanted. Apparently it isn't enough. Frustration's overwhelming my emotions. Overtaking me. All I want to do is scream and let it all out, bang everything, throw everything, shout out how I feel. But who'll listen. All I'll get is just a free stay at the asylum. I'm dying to burst. Maybe it'll happen soon. Because I'm digging my own grave deeper and deeper. I'm awfully talented at digging. I've tried to be happy. Honest to god, I've done my best, staying happy throughout these stresses and struggles of sec three life. Keeping a smile gets harder and harder. But I do try. Ahh well, you'll just hate me more when you read this. What to do? I'm resigned to it all. All I do now is pray to god to give me strength to hold on.

those things i looked forward to, they'll just be dreams i guess. prospects vanished, hopes dashed. i really thought they would happen.

2006-05-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

i hope you read this you assholes.

2006-05-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was off to the movies once more with two little kids! Buddy and Shir! We watched MI:3, which was oh so good, so intense and sent my pulse racing like mad. I think Jonathan Rhys-Meyers is so HOTTTT! His eyes are so nice! And his brit/irish accent is like soooo sexy (: Wheee. After that met Aline and Charmaine at Plaza and then we went shopping at bugis! not very fruitful time though, didn't buy anything for myself. But it was FUNFUN! Went to orchard with buddy and twin where we bought some stuff and then twin met her cousin and we all left.

Hmm, today was shitass boring. Mass, then I slept till dinner. Dinner with the kohs! (: Oooh wee. Lazy oli didn't wanna come, but tricia came. and I got to see the adorable little one again! Oh man, then she did the silliest cutest thing I swear! She was like pretending to die so she turned round and round on the chair like a drunk then she pretended to fall. But then she fell under the table! And because there was like a table cloth it was like she disappeared! Then she resurfaced with that preparing to get scolding so try to look cute face. Major cuteness I swear! :DDDD Me and claudia were laughing so hard la. TRICIAAAAAAA!

Anyway, its mommy's day today.
Happy mother's day, mommy.
I'd like to say, though we fight, oh yes we do, I still love you, mom, I do <3
hope you see this.

2006-05-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

I've been towning three days straight with no signs of stopping. Hah. I feel like I've got to make use of this time, when I'm actually free from everything, CCA, schoolwork everything to just spend time doing things I want, instead of fulfilling obligations. So I'd say these few days have been pretty exhausting but really enjoyable. Awesome company for one. And all the impulse shopping, gets me in a frenzy, ooh i love! :DD

Yesterday;
There was NO SCHOOL on a school day which I find so fabulous. Makes me feel special :DD Haha anyway pretty early morning was the buddy movie date! Watched Poseidon, which was worth every cent of the 8 bucks. The trailers of silent hill and omen got me screaming! Haha but I'd love to watch those shows. Poseidon got me screaming crying and laughing really. We fell in love with that adorable boy! I admire him really I do! And charmaine chew was like, I hope that girl dies. And then she really died and she was like, Eh actually its quite sad. -.-" I cried when the father sacrificed himself for the group ))): It was so armageddon, but the show was better than great! :DDD Then met up with Aline, Catherine, Charmaine, Mich and Shir. Lunched and talked and shopped and walked around. FUNFUNFUN! Again alrights? :DD

Today;
It was a great time spent at ms chan's house today! Finally saw emelyn chew again!!! Gosh I miss those tution sessions with her. And I miss her blog. Because she's currently on hiatus )): anyway, ms chan's got up a really nice blog! :D I think her posts are pretty meaningful. Unlike mine, either full of shit or damn pissed off, with a chockful of profanities. ): Anyway anyway, we caught two eps of CSI and it was fun fun! :DD though silly chew had to scare me during a tense scene, making me jump and scream! Haha. Then saw ms chan's wedding photos, she looked really pretty :DD And they're so style!! Its sad I was sick and couldn't eat )): I'm sure the food was good. Hmm. Its great to have a tutor who's like a friend rather than a teacher :DDDD I think all teachers should be our friends! Hahahahha. Okay whatever. Marina Square and more more more impulse shopping later on with charmaine :DDD Nice talks and everything! I loveeeeee!

Further shopping tomorrow :DDD wheee! I swear I'll go broke soon enough. Self control!!!

2006-05-10T19:48:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR! : DDD

like really really OVERRRRR! I can't even begin to describe how exuberantly elated I'm feeling right now!
Its like the whole pile of geography, chemistry, physics and whatever nonsense books have just flown away into outer space and are not coming back!
Which means I don't have to look at them anymore!
Okay, I guess they are coming back. Rather soon. ): But for now! I'm not going to set my eyes on them.
I will get an eye sore. Anyway I'm so proud of myself because I failed every single subject!
WHEEEEE! I am the best at screwing up! I'll probably get DEMOTED to primary school. Heh. Maybe then I'll be able to pass. Haha! But anyway, who cares! No more, monsoons and tropical storms and deciduous forests and bonding and rodox and pressure and whatnot for pretty long!
Now everything will revolve around FUN AND MOVIES AND SHOPPING DATES AND BEACH AND SLEEEEEEEEEP! Oh the joy of being able to sleep! A LOT! I'M A HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY SOON TO BE FIFTEEN YEAR OLD!

TOWN today with the most fun bunch of people was like whoaaaaa! THE F4: SPERM BUDDY AND GABBY AND ME! & the BABIES and the EGG. And ZABUZA & CATHERINE THE KID & MICHYPEACHY THE SMALL ONE. Finally get to breathe in the town smell after so long. And finally get the feel the town air in my face and have a mind that's not constantly occupied by what's pressure and redox and whatever ridiculous study things that are alien to me now. And I get to eat a celebratory meal. LIKE OMG! I have never felt so liberated in my life.

Okay, except maybe for my FIVE PM curfew. Haha but whatever!
MY TUITIONS END AT NINE THIRTY AND SIX AND MY TRAINING ENDS AT FIVE THIRTY. so much for a curfew. I'm rarely home before five. So like how bloody ridiculous is that. Its worse than redox. Which, I promise you, is very very bad.

Yah whatever. Anyway anyway, I'm HAPPY. I want to take up ballroom dancing, so I can be hot like those girls in TAKE THE LEAD. And I hope to have a hot dancing partner like banderas who's so charmaing and hot and sexy. OMG I so love his spanish accent. I want to learn spanish too! So i can have a nice spanish accent. Heehee.

OKAY MY POST IS RANDOM AND UNNECESSARY. I'm just toooooooo HAPPY.

i miss you, i really do;

2006-04-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

I've never been so unprepared for exams before! Its like TWO weeks before exams and I just realised I don't know a single thing about the past two chapters of chemistry! REDOX and that stupid one! OHMYGOD! I'm HIATUS-ING. From the computer. So BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE
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2006-04-15T16:10:00.000+08:00

2.4 run today was agonizing. Into the fifth round and I was on the verge of collapsing. But then again this happens every year I always feel like giving up. After that Aline and I ran with Lay Cheng, to cheer her on. Strategised her timing. Haha. Did four km in total. Madness. Then it was macs in the open area outside haagen dazs :DD Sat around in a circle, reminded me of camp! Me and Grace and Aline then went to play in the playground. Hee. With maomao. Reminds me of last year. I love that place. Pictures, playing crapping : DD Neoprints after with the nine of us. Aline, Catherine, Charmaine, Gervin, Grace, Liting, Lay Cheng, Vanessa. A great bunch! Dare and double dare at coffeebean and then headed home. Oh and a random fact! Its beautiful weather here, raining! And I feel like going up to splash around and feel the rain beating down on me : D

Thanks for that talk today.
Thanks for listening, for sharing.
I promise you, you'll make it through
And I'll be there for you

2006-04-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

English was OH SO SWEET yesterday. I'm loving threetwo more and more because everyone is just so sweet and nice! Honestly, those heartfelt little messages of encouragement touched me. Tears were on the verge of coming out really. I mean, its been tough these couple of weeks, feeling like giving up and all. So reading those sweet words like you'll make it made me believe that I really will, thought oftentimes I feel like letting go. It was much needed. Thanks to all you sweet dearies in threetwo. I meant every word I wrote, I really do love you all!

we'll hold on together;

2006-04-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

I try so hard to be happy but you're not helping matters. Read my messages, gossip and then not a single word of concern. NO. So why do you think I don't tell you anything. God damn it. You don't even care when I have a blister, or when I'm stressed out for my compettion or when I'm feeling car sick. All you know how to do is make bloody hurting comments like WHAT IF YOU COME N LAST? YOU MIGHT AS WELL NOT TAKE PART BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOSE. or YOU CAR SICK IS IT? I DROP YOU NOW YOU WALK. What I think you would say to my problems scares me. And you wonder why I have so much to message, so much to talk on the phone about. Fuck, its because there's no way in hell I can tell you anything. You won't even care. I need someone to confide in. Someone to spill all my problems out to or I'll break down soon. I've found those someones in my friends. There's no bloody time in school, and no privacy. Thats what my phone's for. You remove that and I'll just have to keep it all inside till one day I'll just explode and break down, and when that happens, there won't just be tears I promise you that. And when I fall another time, there's no climbing back up. So I'll pay any price to have that outlet to release all my hurt and pain and anger. I don't want it to build up inside. It hurts so bad sometimes you know. All that weighing down inside. IF ONLY YOU KNEW.

2006-04-09T21:49:00.000+08:00

Those two hours at bukit gombak were intensely traumatising. I've never felt so alone, so shit scared in my life.As expected I completely screwed up, forgot what I was supposed to do, how to throw. Thankfully, those two excruciating minutes went by soon enough, and I survived it. Thanks to

ALINE CHAN, dear twin, for your spikes and jacket and track pants and dri fit, for coming all the way down to bukit gombak, for the support, for making me feel less afraid. I LOVE YOU DEAR. You're the best I promise <3
CHEW! thanks for your support and encouragement, couldn't have done without you my dear. I LOVE YOU <3
CATHERINE LIM, thanks dear for the message. I love you besty.
CHARMAINE NG, dear poke, thanks for that message and that phonecall alright? It made me feel tons better. And and, do know I'll always be here for you too, always no matter what. Love you!
DIANA; oh you cute cute one! Thanks for everything, the care and all that! I love you so so much you know! You make me feel a hell lot better I promise. Do take care okay?
EVLIN, thanks for the tag sweet bouncy! I LOVE YOUUUU<3
GRACE CHAN, tallest! thanks for that lovely testi! It did make me feel better! : D

Anyway, band concert on friday night was really good. Superbly played all of you!
ALYSSA LIM ALYSSA TAN CHARMAINE GRACE ERNICA EMILI LITING LAY CHENG!
Love you all! : D

2006-04-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

National Juniors tomorrow and I'm shit scared for it ): All I can think of is that I'm gonna screw everything up. Seriously, I'll either be disqualified for every try or I'll forget the pull and whip and throw like crap ))))): God help me please blow my javelin a bit further so that I won't be too far behind the second last thrower. Please don't let me screw up until I don't know where to hide my face. I can almost imagine all the other throwers laughing at me. I'm so scared that I'm freaking out. Grahhhhh.

2006-04-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

This is so random but ITS APRIL FOOLS DAY and my really really nice friends tricked me! rawrrrrr. Shall not elaborate on it. I freaked for like 10 seconds before I realised it was april 1st. Oh yes and Chew was screaming on the phone, trying to cry. But I know that won't be her reaction. HAHA. And Reca Cheng you're heartless. TWIN HANKY PANKY CHEW ME! You're very very very mean ):

BUT I'M TOO SMART I THINK :DDDDDDD
Happy April Fools Day!

Anyway, congrats long dist runners! FIRST for road run yah! : D

2006-03-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

well in the morning had to wake up bloody early for the ZAO AN NI HAO show. Got more fun later when we went crazy over RENFRED. He's damn cute especially from the side view and I got three pictures with him and his autograph! Whatever I was acting like some cheenafied despo shit. BUT it was fun though! AND I'm not the only one who likes him! Many many many others too.

Okay then some shit thing happened that got me ~~fucking~~ sad but its all over now thank god. THEN THEN sports day. Better than expected I must say. Just talking and talking and walking around and looking for people. And maybe a bit of cheering. BLUE HOUSE WON! i think. It will so embarrassing if it did not. I will celebrate when its confirmed if not tomorrow during assembly I won't know where to hide my face if they lose.

ANYWAY
CHARMAINE; ALINE; EVLIN; VANESSA; MICH; SHIR; and all those who ran
Great runs everyone! I saw you all try your best and I'm so damn proud of you guys. CONGRATS! Vanessa entertaining run yah! Chew you did your best in that rain! And you did blue house proud too! : D LOVE YOU ALL

2006-03-26T16:11:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD.

I've got pastoral attachment for the next FIVE weeks and guess what I'm doing!

WARDENING!!!

rahrahrah. How embarrassing ))): I swear I'll drop the thing or hit somebody with it. Ohmygod.

anyway,
ALINECHAN!
I'm terribly sorry I can't make it for your race today. I'm damn freaking guilty now. Promise I'll be there for national juniors or whatever okay?? Don't be so scared for your runs. I know you can do it! All the way twin! And thanks for the really sweet tags. Sorry about that thing, for everything actually. I LOVE YOU A FREAKING HELL LOT and I don't know what I would do without you besty <3

2006-03-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

The past week has kind of sucked. But anyway I think it's all over. I was really very happy yesterday, especially during maths. Even though it was three long periods they were happy three periods! : D Apart from some annoying things last night, I'm going to try to be happy. School's okay, the workload's lighter and english was great yeasterday. We got into this heated debate about euthanasia. I am so AGAINST euthanasia now!!! Even though at first I was FOR it. But now I think its so CRUEL AND INUMANE and very very MEAN. Oh yeah, and then there's constant bickering about who's MRS LAYCHENG. which is KATHLEEN KOH. or maybe SHORTEST GRACE CHAN. And their green baby which keeps getting lost. Okay whatever I'm being random.

Charmaine!
Chewy/Chew Me/Chewbbs/CHEW! Thank you dear for everything, I'm glad it's all over. Thank you for listening alright. Its times like these that I really appreciate friends like you. I love you besty! :D

Charmaine!
Pokepokepokepokepoke! My dear poke thanks for being there through all my constant moodswings and rants and cries and I couldn't ask for a better friend. You make my darkest days so bright you really do! :D Love you besty!

Reca and Diana
Pair of hanky pankys! You make recess and lunch and between lessons really fun! Thanks for all the care and concern and phonecalls and messages. I'm here for you too alright, anytime. Just 8 numbers away. Love you two plenty plenty. Must be happy all the time okay!

rawr i'm tired. more next time.

2006-03-22T19:27:00.000+08:00

Nothing's really going right ever since the march holidays. Its been down down down all the way. And no matter how hard I try to put that smile on my face it just keeps getting harder and harder. The stress is draining all my energy now and I wonder with envy how everyone else seems to be coping so well. I said at the beginning of the year I would get through 2006 by finding something to look forward to everyday. I guess my plan's rather a failure because there's absolutely nothing to look forward to. Its all getting so draining, the drudgery and work and the stress and the expectations all fighting to grab and claw away at me. There's not much left now. I'll strain to survive through the next round of trials. And I swear this, that if I screw up my mid years I'm not just going to cry.

Each night's spent losing my hurt and pain
in various forms of expression
I'm sorry for what I did and I know that you really care
So seeing things in this state is particularly painful, particularly hurting
Now's not a point in time that I'd be able to cope with this
Its a time where paranoia would set in
And I'm afraid of losing you, someone I love someone I trust
So please, I don't know how much longer I can hold on
pull me back up please will you?

RECA; Thanks for being there, thanks for making me feel better, thanks for trying to help. I appreciate it and I can't thank you enough. Please know I'm ALWAYS ALWAYS here to listen, even though I don't know what to say to make things better but you can always talk to me alright? I love you <3

2006-03-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

AWMAHGAWD

Your blog is so stagnant la joosy woosy
HAHAH, I know you had a very fun time yesterday telling my friend you love him :)
Oh wait, ahem ahem right
We'll be matchmakers for you both

Ohkay, byebye
PLEASE UPDATE AFTER THIS

:DDD
CHEWBBBSSSSSSSS & CHEW MEEEEEEE

2006-03-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

the feeling of disappointment
like you've just let yourself down
you know you could have done better but you didn't
thats when you know you've really fucked it up.
i had my chances and i wasted them all away

but thanks anyway alright, to everyone.
SAM SHERLYN CHARMAINE CATHERINE TEOW ALINE RACHEL RECA DIANA
you made me feel better thank you.

hanky panky you better throw well on sports day. YOU BETTER GET A MEDAL COS I'LL BE SUPPORTING YOU EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT IN YOUR HOUSE!

i heard you did very well for chemistry
~~THANK YOU! THAT MADE ME FEEL A LOT BETTER!~~

2006-03-04T19:05:00.000+08:00

And in the end when its all over
All we have left of it are memories.
Beautiful ones

I have to say, adventure camp was so damn fun. Every moment was so special I’ll never ever forget these three days two nights spent with the NICEST SWEETEST MOST FUN PEOPLE EVER. Threetwo, I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! (:

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WHEEE first day! I was so super psyched about it! So anyway we started with initiative games and it was oh so fun, especially the lifting the bottle game. I say our group did really well! The balloon game enthused lots of laughter due to the uncomfortable movements and positions we were in. somewhat resembled humping yah! :D okay then we finally got to dragon boating! I was hoping to get a really nice tan. The main attraction of dragon boating. Haha. But unfortunately I think mr sun doesn't like me much. But but it was fun nonetheless! Though our arms ached like crazy it was pure bliss screaming THREE TWO THREE TWO THREE TWO and rowing and rowing. Group 3 moved really fast! :D then jumped into the cool salty water. Haha my feet felt so heavy and swimming was tough shit. But it was so fun I think the whole class jumped in! SPLASH SPLASH SPLAH. Ooh wee I love dragon boating! (:

Headed to pasir ris for amazing race thereafter! split into odd and even numbers in group 3. It was quite boring at first cos we were all so shagged. Oh but at the first stop me and Shirlynn climbed the tree and took picture with Germaine in front. HEH. And then after that we were singing all the way, the whole group of us. Oh and our instructor bought us drinks. CH was damn nice (: The mocha was goooooood.

Then prep for gala night. GREASED LIGHTNING! THAT THING YOU DO! MAMBO NO. 5! I BELIEVE! Our dance moves are FUNKY! (: went HIGH! but then later there was this night walk and it was so damn scary i cried. And then there was once when I let go of Charmaine and behind Charmaine let go of me. and i was stranded blindfolded. Then i freaked. Cried because it was so damn scary and screamed like hell too. Thankfully there were people around me encouraging all the way. Gathered in our tent to talk before we all slept. TENTMATES! Alyssa, Catherine and Charmaine, sorry for turning 360 degrees yah!

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Ropes course today was the ultimate fun! Survived the high elements and team :D It was way scary but I a great experience. Group 3 people are damn nice and we had so much fun singing talking crapping and encouraging each other! Crapped with the teachers too! Mr Jiao and Mr Chan are damn funny. Heh. Mr Jiao sang this really cute song and told us a lame sushi joke. Hahahaha. Oh oh and the low elements were really fun too! We had this great instructor, Jacelyn who got us drinks. THANK YOU! The low element games were all about teamwork and i must say group 3 worked super well with each other :D Finally after all that activity we went back to practise for gala night! THREETWO'S DANCE IS SUPER NICE! Its the most fun dance ever really! And I think everyone was really enthusiastic about it. Oh then there was some problems about bathing that got us all riled up. But anyway, I'll get on to the CAMPFIRE!!

CAMPFIRE WAS THE BEST THING EVER! The atmosphere, singing at the top of our voices, really really nice. THREETWO PERFORMED WELL! It was great cos we were all enjoying ourselves not stressing out. First time I was excited when it was our turn! It was terribly sad at the end when they played If We Hold On Together but a nice way to end.

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The day we break camp. So sad please. First we played the eagle and chick game and then took grass, trees and forest shots! Haha, threetwo joke. The relay race was great fun though I didn't really participate. THREETWO GOT SECOND! :D Charmaine and I were cheering at the back doing stupid cheers. We love the MY SIDE song don't we? OOH WEE. :D
JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP THREE TWO!
That's a threetwo original cheer (:

Camp was awesome and I've got withdrawal symptoms now. I am addicted to threetwo really! (: Talked lots to people I barely knew. Tess, Lee Boon, OH THESE TWO AHH KEEP SCARING ME AT NIGHT BY PUTTING THEIR TORCHLIGHTS BELOW THEIR FACES AND MAKING CREEPY NOISES! Heh. Amanda, for being superdee sweet. campfire night was fun sitting next to you! Grace and Lay Cheng for all that entertainment. Heh. And the rest of threetwo for making this camp so special!

IF WE HOLD ON TOGETHER
I KNOW OUR DREAMS WILL NEVER DIE
DREAMS SEE US THROUGH TO FOREVER
WHERE CLOUDS ROLL BY
FOR YOU AND I

2006-03-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

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TODAY IS SUCH A SPASTIC DAY

first we had like four tests. BOM BOM BOM BOM. i nearly killed myself in all the stress. && the lit was so incredibly amazingly terribly shitty. because there was forty minutes to do and i spent 5 minutes stoning about macbeth! and then ms teo was like TEN MORE MINUTES and i didn't even finish the first question yet. RAHHHH. i was thinking. okay. forget it. FAILED.

i've got FAIL stamped on each test i took today. IN BIG BRIGHT RED GAWDY LETTERING.

so far,
physics has got my hand shaking in fear
chem has got me pulling my hair in frustration
a maths has got me tensed up like crazy
lit has got me throwing my pen in anger with myself.

seee i'm so stupid and stressed.

okay after lit wasn't too bad at all. assembly interesting! and then the practise for mass dance! my goodness i'm addicted to GREASED LIGHTNINGGGGG & THAT THING YOU DO & MAMBO NO. 5! the dance moves are SO FUNKYYYYY! the dance steps are retarded but very very cool! cheryl did a damn good job i think! and chloe too!!! our dance is gonna rock the whole pasir ris field whatever!

then tien hsia. which was so stupid. especially when victoria was telling evlin the shark joke! she just couldn't understand what a guy's THING was, such that victoria had to say so loudly, HIS BANANA LAH! it was so damn funny we got scolded for laughing. and the bloody ftard of a teacher kept picking on me. made me read the stupid poem and then ask em so many questions. so what if i was talking you ftard!!!!! GO EAT YOUR OWN SHITTTT!

haha HANKY PANKY is such a spastic retard! i won't miss you HANKY PANKY!

this post shall be in memory of hanky panky's boyfriend, mr orange cos he'll never be able to fly again ):

2006-02-25T09:12:00.000+08:00

Some people should just go and get a life because honestly you are such a UCNCKGFI loser. Its almost like you're walking around with L O S E R spelt out big on your forehead.

And you make me so UCNCKGFI pissed and annoyed I am so tempted to slap your face.

BAHHHH irritants make me post.

2006-02-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

-charmaine > Maybe it's better when i bleed for you says:(11:13:43 PM)
OH!

-charmaine > Maybe it's better when i bleed for you says:(11:13:55 PM)
i think i know why my mood isnt constant.

-charmaine > Maybe it's better when i bleed for you says:(11:14:15 PM)
BECAUSE I CONFIRMED THAT I LOST MY ERASER AND HAD TO USE A NEW ONE ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

HRMMM.
you do say the funniest things sometimes : DDD

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA!
hope you had fun today alright (:
lunch was gooood.

2006-02-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

freaking hell
will you just leave us alone
you.

2006-01-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

Roti kaya is damn disgusting, I find.

Yesterday I stayed in the kitchen the whole time Federer was playing because everytime I went out he would lose.

2006-01-22T23:26:00.000+08:00

Church and things today set me thinking quite a bit. Praise and worship was unexpectedly enjoyable. The band was great though it will be better if people are more enthusiastic I suppose. The lead singer was talking about how we're all like edmund in narnia. How we always stray from God, and then God will always forgive us. And there I was, thinking how stupid Edmund is. Hrmm. And then a rather wasted trip to town. I guess I shall have to get my things this Friday, since today was very unsuccessful.

Alone in a crowd, so that's how it feels.

A nice phonecall. Well I guess we all go through the same problems, don't we. Just that we think we're the only ones with problems here in this world. How pathetic is it.

2006-01-02T18:04:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year!
Say goodbye to 2005. A good year I'm thankful for I must say.
Despite all the disputes and animosity and tears and misery and horrible songs and regretful movies, i couldn't ask for a better 2005. Had everything I live life for, fun joy laughter smiles and happiness. So i hope and i'll try to make 2006 have as few regrets and bad decisions and tears as possible, so that come 010107, i'll be able to say that i couldn't ask for a better 2006. Yeah, that's what i'll live for. And I hope to have nicer food, watch better movies, listen to catchier songs, study more interesting stuff, laugh at funnier things, grow taller and skinnier, have more fun and be as happy as i can. (:

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Countdown was really awesome. A lot of screaming, a lot of laughing.
There were the talks about music. more songs(: bluff, heart attack which were hilarious with charmaine, brian, oli and claudia!
Then playing with tricia! She really brings a smile to my face(:
Oh and the unforgettable walk just before midnight.
The conversation was unexpectedly enlightening. A nice way to end off the year, talking about life and death and deja vu.
Hmm, wrong place though. Cos my sidelane is super scary at night. Hence it didnt exactly help that we were talking about those things.
And thinking how scary it would be if we turned and saw a woman with long hair.
So charmaine chew screamed when she saw some stupid fat ass jogger coming round the corner. And everybody followed, giving him a huge fright i think. Ooh then brian was damn smart, reenacted the scene and made everyone scream again.
Countdown was pretty good, not as anti-climax as i expected.
Ahh, that concludes one of the BEST EVER new years eve countdown!

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Not a good start to the year i guess.
Then headed to the koh's place once again.
Fun fun fun. Talked, towned, pizza then movies.
Gangs of New York is bloody violent. Literally. I was squirming in my seat.
Finally got to bed at around midnight cos we were all dead tired.

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Tricia woke us up at a totally unearthly hour of EIGHT! Haha!
By jumping on the bed and going, WAKE UP WAKE UP!
I kind of had no choice but to, wake up.
Went swimming and then lunch and then watched a stupid show, rosemary's baby
Supposed to be bloody scary but it was just bloody boring.

Oh well thats the end of the fun.
Im suffering from holiday withdrawal symptoms. ):
This holiday was one of the most awesome ones ever! I miss EVERYTHING about it! Everywhere I went, the people i had fun with especially brian oli claudia tricia, the aust holiday was one of the best ever! Oh and the music too! I suddenly LOVE emo/screamo/punk a lot! The songs i've found or been introduced to are just so addictive. Grahh. Its all come to an end.

I have decided to live 2006 everyday looking for something to look forward to. Hmm. Yay!

2005-12-31T00:36:00.000+08:00

So i have redone my blog. Or it isnt quite done yet.
Links not complete, tagboard not up, colour not changed.
But anyway.

Lets see, the past two days have been awesome.
Thursday was at claudia's house with charmaine claudia and tricia before towning later.
Mean girls, walking aimlessly around town, talking, crapping, laughing. hmm.
Yesterday was towning and narnia with claudia and brian.
Great fun these two days have been.
Today's gonna be awesome i bet.
At least, some more fun before the drudgery of the mundane education system commences on 0301.
hmm.

2005-12-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

2006 New Year's Resolution

1. Be dedicated to Track&Field which means going for training regularly
2. Do my Geography project properly, no slacking off
3. Communicate more with my parents
4. Go online ONLY to do research; on weekdays
5. Do notes earlier
6. File my work properly, instead of dumping them in my bag and when the teacher asks for something freak out and turn the bag upside down saying I CANT FIND IT! OH SHIT! WHERE IS IT!
7. Lose weight
8. Have less fights/quarrels
9. Stop being so mean and sarcastic
10. Don't get into trouble with teachers at all, not like this year and make so many teachers hate me
11. Have fun, stay happy for as long as i can

2005-12-25T13:55:00.000+08:00

merry christmas!

its nice that its christmas and yet it doesnt feel like christmas
yesterday was nice though
caught narnia with charmaine and charmaine
haha thats dumb.
okay anyway wasnt really in the mood for a movie
so talked a lot
charmaine kept asking me to shut up
but then its not my fault cos SOMEBODY was tickling me
and that SOMEBODY is irrationally lusting after aslan
he looks good, but not cute. no way
the show was good too. very entertaining.
then after that headed to charmaine's house for christmas party!
i kept sleeping but they kept waking me up.
arrrgh
that SOMEBODY was even worse, dont allow me to sleep then after that fell asleep
and i was fighting with the dickkkk. hahaha.
sent special dick xmas messages to each other
ooh wee.
christmas!
presents, presents, more presents.
or actually no really
but merry christmas anyway

2005-12-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

time flies by damn quickly. suddenly im back from my final holiday and will be stuck in singapore for ages. holidaying in australia was superb! everything was perfect, the place, the people, everything. okay maybe not everything. like the first ight in brisbane wasnt too good. the hotel was spooky cos the lift looked like the hollywood tower of terror ride in disneyland. eerily familiar. and the place was super dark and i was damn scared. luckily only for a night. that day headed for lin's graduation. graduations are really cool! you get flowers and everything. and everyone's so nicely dressed. sweet (: oh and congrats!!! she's a dentist now! doctor chan! (: then went shopping for a bit. but the factory outlet was disappointing i must say. after that drove up to gold coast! the land of sun and sand and sea! its got a beautiful relaxed atmosphere. met up with the koh family and then went shopping at pacific fair. it is awfully huge. only managed to cover a few shops. oh then after that went to the beach for the first time! i love the beach. it is freaking awesome! we built sand cities and dug super deep holes and played in the water. damn we had a hell lot of fun. the next day we went again, at like 5 am. built lotsa stuff again. nicer city with a beautiful mountain. i love digging holes. went body boarding! man it was damn fun cos the waves are bloody huge and you really feel like youre flying. i got swallowed by the wave though. pretty cool! sleepover at night, over at my place. played heart attack with oli and brian. god it was damn hilarious. oli is super blur and she only looks at her own cards. hahahaha. we woke claudia up cos we were laughing like crazy. haha. couldnt make too much noise so went to bed. next day was movie world. was psyched but it was pretty disappointing. especially batman and lethal weapon cos it gave me a headache, knocking me from side to side. it was a hanging coaster so it was rather cool. the scooby doo ride was great though. our car stopped halfway at this stupid scary part with skeletons. i waas so freaked i kept talking rubbish until oli asked me to shut up. she was gripping my hand super tight lahh. then after that the ride was awesome. the turning and drops and all. brilliant. beach once more! i love the beach A LOT. this time we dug a hole so freaking deep it almost went up to our hips. cool shit. next day was lots of beach and then jet boating! awesome! the 360 degree flips were amazing, though it got me thoroughly drenched. jet boating is damn good really. screamed my lungs out man. oh then the best day of the whole trip. DREAMWORLD! wheee! first ride was a disappointment. the cyclone was horribly slow and boring. but wth. maybe its cos we've been on screaming california so no roller coaster's exciting anymore. then after that did vortex where we stuck to the wall cos this thing spinned super fast. quite cool really. followed oli on this reef diver thing. which is like a bloody fast ferris wheel that flips you upside down. many times. and there's only a velcro strap. was screaming and laughing the whole way. super fun. oh then WIPEOUT! fun fun fun. i love flipping, and hanging upside down for like so long. felt like i was falling out but that was great man. another quite slow hanging coaster after that. before the TOWER OF TERROR. whee that ride's like ten seconds. but super fun. they blast you up this 40 storey tower and then shoot you back down, backwords. a freaking good experience. the wet rides fter that. disappointing really, hardly scary and yet it got me drenched on ONE SIDE. had to hang out my sock to dry cos it was soaked lah. after that was the ride of a lifetime. THE GIANT DROP. giant it really is. sadistically brought us up so dam slowly and dangled us forty stories above ground for a 20 seconds that seemed like eternity. my legs were shaking, my knees were weak and i was cursing non stop. then suddenly it dropped. and i screamed like hell. i swear i left my soul up there for a while. it was shit scary. and brian could still put up his hands and smile for the camera. omg lah. the scariest ride ever! i think im mad. cos after the giant drop i decided to go for THE CLAW! managed to get dad and brian to go. its like this majorly huge viking where everyone's dangling from the edge of this circular thing. and then it goes like a viking but its super fast and it goes upside down. it looked bloody scary but it was a blast. the most fun ride in the entire park. went twice! after that stupidly went for giant drop again. this time it was equally scary! and i was like yelling, what the hell am i putting myself through this again???!?!!? but the drop was better and i smiled for the camera! repeated rides again. claw, wipeout, tower of terror. i love dreamworld man. my cousin joined us later and stayed at my apartment. the next day she joined us on the hot air balloon, woke up at an unearthly our of 3.30. to catch the sunrise supposedly. but by the time they did all their stupid windtests, the sun rose. how irritating. but then again, the experience was great. we were up about 4000 feet high in a basket like thing. scary for a bit but after that its damn good. got bitten by a hell lot of ants though. and there were so many freaking flies around i was waving my hands around like some crazy idiot. i hate flies. i hate flies. i hate flies. oh i hate ants too. the bites sting like crazy. i wanted to chop my leg off. okay then went shopping at pacific fair. bought presents and all that stuff. fabulous shopping man. then went jet skiing and parasailing. screamed a freaking hell lot during parasailing. cos we were moving violently and oli was super scared. but it was damn fun! then jet skiing with claudia as pillion rider. haha lucky she was there. im a speed demon man. and i go super fast until she has to scream at me to slow down. hahaha. that happens every round. i'll suddenly accelerate and go full speed and she'll start screaming SLOW DOWN!! YOURE TOO CLOSE TO THE JETTY/BOAT/SHORE/OTHER JET SKI! hahaha. sorry man. i love going fast. last day. damn fast. oh i forgot to say. i love tricia koh a lot a lot. she is undeniably adorable.
i miss;
-her calling me jiejie jack-si, cos jessi's not nice
-kicking and pushing me and laughing when i dramatically fall backwards
-carrying her around on my neck
-her adorable renditions of wake up, mr lonely, spongebob squarepants and i love you, you love me
-her super cute poses for the camera, but refusal to take with me
-her BIG HUGS! and kissing everyone's butt ((:
ahhh i miss everything about this holiday!!!!!!!
):
but tomorrow will be fun. christmas gathering.
merry christmas!! <3

2005-12-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

10 REALLY RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME
> im scared of airplane toilets
> i love haagen daaz strawberry ice cream a lot
> im sick and tired of television
> im sick and tired of newspapers
> i need water for every meal
> i get bored easily when i watch movies at home but i will still finish it
> i have a pathetic social life
> i have no confidence in myself whatsoever
> i think im stupid, fat short and ugly
> after watching trainspotting, i feel like trying heroin

9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
> play me my favourite songs
> tell me nice things about myself; i’ll most definitely disagree with you but actually im very happy inside
> write me sweet messages
> give me a hug
> buy me cookies/sweets
> listen to my problems and empathise
> message me when im bored
> chat with me online
> give me surprises. i hardly get any.

8 THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY
> ipod
> wallet
> phone
> clothes
> shoes
> bag
> ear sticks
> socks

7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME
> liars
> people who stand me up
> people who break my heart
> parents who nag so much
> the construction work outside that makes a hell of a noise every fucking day
> babies who cry or make so much noise during church/movies
> ah lian language

6 PLACES I'VE VISITED OR INTEND TO
> south africa
> new zealand
> USA
> canada
> switzerland
> england

5 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
> go backpacking across the globe
> holiday with friends
> go on as many roller coasters as i can
> sky dive
> do something worthwhile like helping the poor in Africa

4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF
> close ones dying
> being skinned alive
> loneliness
> having to say goodbye to those i love

3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY
> my weird procedure of cleaning my lenses
> sleep
> bathe

2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW
> homework
> being bored, why the hell do you think im doing this?

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW
> my one true love.